Saturday, November 24, 2012

spit it out

just spit out the truth jelah.  there's no need to pretend or be afraid.  stop giving people high hopes.
I haaaaate you -,-

Friday, November 23, 2012

Hey peeps :)

As a Malaysian, I am truly deeply sorry to Vixx and Nuest for what had happened last night :/ 

I am ashamed to know that these type of people still exist.  They are nothing but a bunch of bastards.

Dear bastards,
 I think you guys should go back to preschool and learn about respecting people. Remember, karma exist.  What goes around comes around.

not sure

I think I like you :I

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Moral value

Hey peeps :)

Being an SBP student had taught me a lot of things.  No, its not the same old 'be strong, tough and brave' stuff.  It is something that we face everyday without really realizing it as a learning process.  In other word, I've experience many new things this year.

1. I'm alone and S.I.C.K
Yup.  Once you are in a boarding school, your parents won't be there with you especially when you are sick (except if you are sick at home) but most of the times you will get sick at school.  The first time I went through this experience was around March-May.  Boy, how I felt like going back home.  I kept thinking that if I am at home now surely my parents will take me to the clinic, even if its at night, they will still take me to the clinic.  But here, at my school, I can't.  Well its not that I can't but I just simply don't want to.  I don't want to bother myself going to the sick bay at 10.00 am, wait at the hospital... crowded hospital and in the end I get the same medicine like I have in my locker.  I rather stay and wait until I've recover.

2. Sleeping in class
I have never in my life fell asleep in class when the teacher is teaching.  But once I entered here, I see many people sleeping in class everyday including myself.  I used to bring a small spray bottle so that when I feel sleepy, I would spray myself.  But you see, the method tends to make me feel more sleepy because the water sprayed is dried with cool wind thus making my face cooled and my eyes heavier.  So I decided to chew some small snacks... and now I've gained weight...

3. Countdowns everywhere !!!
Almost every class I go, I will see a holiday countdown on the board.  Everyday the students will update the board and draw some cute pictures to decorate the board.  3 days to go, 2 days to go, today's the day! Yeah we'll get excited and stuff.  But one thing that didn't change was, the exam countdowns.  If its written there 35 days till midyear, then no one will change it and it will stay like that until midyear arrives.  True story.

4. No cake
This may sound annoying but this year was the first year I celebrated my birthday without a cake.  Its not like I demand for a cake but ever since I was a child, birthday cakes symbolize a person getting old but still is loved by the family.  Its the day where they celebrated that once a year occasion together, smiling, cheering, joking around.  Foolish? Yeah I know.  So this year I decided to change it.  With or without a birthday cake, I am still loved by my family and still getting old...

5. Not being there with them
I wasn't there when they celebrated my mom's birthday, Father's day, my lil brother's birthday, my dad's birthday.  When I first entered here, I cried at night because I won't be sharing happy moments with them, I won't be in the group picture... but my dad once told me, "There will always be a first time for everything" so yeah, its better that I'm prepared now rather than I experience this when I'm married and have a row with my husband about wanting to go back and all stuff.

In conclusion, life in boarding school had taught me so many things.  Despite discipline and self-control I've learned that the only thing I have in here was my friends.  They are the one that kept me alive, they are the one that cheered me up when I cried, angry and sad.  They will always be there for each other.  Here, I've learned about true value of friendship.  We don't mind if the person next to us fart so loud, we don't mind if her tudung looks funny, or she likes to snort when she laughs because the one thing that matter is that we accept them who they are. okay that sentence didn't really make any sense.  The thing is, I love my Cattle moo-moo, my dormmates and friends.  Thank you for everything and sorry if I always cause trouble :)